Saturday

I'm going to Florida for 4 nights at the end of the month for business. I'm really excited, but after I scheduled the flight and rental car and all of that I realized that I haven't been on a plane in like 10 years. We flew a few times when I was a small child and I puked every single time. I don't do well with motion, or heights, or planes and airports in general, so I am actually quite anxious about the trip now. Not to mention that I get lost on the way to my own bathroom half the time, and my flight lands in Ft. Lauder dale so I have to drive 30 minutes to my final destination. Mapquest always always always lets me down so I'm pretty sure I'll get lost at least once.

I can't imagine being away from D and E for that long. It sounds wonderful and horrible at the exact same time. E's been a daddy's boy lately, so I'm sure they will have a great time drinking beer and watching sports shows. D will likely teach E how to smash a beer can with his head, he'll explain the art of distinguishing fake boobs from real ones and, heck, maybe they'll get really crazy and take a trip down to that Asian massage parlor down the highway. Tsk, silly boys.

I'm very excited about the possibility of jogging around Florida in the mornings before work as my cardio while on this trip. I'm not a runner, so it'll do my body good, and it's FLORIDA. Course I'll probably get lost, just me and my running shoes, feet don't fail me now. Maybe I'll pack my jump rope just in case jogging cluelessly around a completely unfamiliar city doesn't sound like such a good idea at the last minute. Right now it sounds like fun!

Being the nut that I am I will be packing pouches of tuna, salmon and chicken, preportioned nuts and premeasured protein powder. Hey, just because I'm traveling doesn't mean my diet has to suffer! I know things will be less than perfect food and exercise wise for those 4 days, but that's ok. When the possibility of this trip came up earlier in the year I totally freaked; my inner disordered eating self panicked ferociously. I gave her a xanax and told her to shut it and she really hasn't emerged since. So, I think I'll be ok.

I'm thinking about doing the Anabolic Diet for awhile to see what it's like and how my body will respond. If I decide to do it, it won't be for a few months yet because after I'm back from Florida my job responsibilities will increase tremendously, and I don't think it's a good idea to be in that carbless fog that tends to settle over you when you're on such a diet. Once I get the hang of my new position I just might give it a try. I know a couple of fabulous fitness freaks over on the PN forum who are doing the diet as we speak, and I intend to watch them closely and cheer them on. Depending on their results and mindset I'll know whether to run screaming for the hills or give the diet a try. For now I'm laying low with the basic PN principles and loving it, training hard as usual and watching the number on the scale slowly go down. I can't AFFORD to do the AD right now anyway... I just bought a whole new smaller wardrobe and would like to enjoy it for at least a couple of months before the new stuff starts getting too big.

My family is coming next weekend and then the weekend after that my sister Emily is flying in, so the next 2 weekends will be fabulous. I always have the best time with my family. I miss them so! I'm anxious for the moment when they walk in and see Ethan. I don't think they are going to believe their eyes when they see how much he's grown, how well he speaks, how bright-eyed and good humored a kid he is. We are definitely not having another kid, I say that with 99.9% certainty. E is so awesome that I'm pretty sure our next kid would be a dud. ;)

D and I weren't doing very well for awhile there, and we were in marital hell to the point of no return, or so I thought. When people tell you marriage is tough you just don't have a clue as to what they're talking about. You think you do, you think you're ready, but you just don't know until you're already legally bound for eternity and there's no turning back. We've learned so much about each other over the last several weeks, the main problem was that we lost our connection. It's so easy to do in the day to day grind. We lost that best friendship that our relationship is built on. We needed to reconnect, but life just got in the way. It's amazing how you can feel so distant from somebody you spend so much time with. I guess we sort of fell in love with each other all over again, and things are great. You just learn as you go, I suppose. Neither of us is perfect and that's totally cool. We're gonna make it after all! That's a good, GOOD feeling. :D